My inspiration through the years
Talking..walking..swimming..running..dreaming..wis hing
We did that together ,and I hope we always continue doing what we always wished for and lived through.
Writing..reading..listening.
We did that together too , I wonder if you realize it but I only loved doing those with you .
Smiling..complementing..laughing..and making fun.
We did that quite a lot, we felt joy in being with each other we felt…… happiness .
Crying..sobbing..screaming..nightmares and sad truths.
The way we lived and are living is actually complementing these things in us we cry ,yes ,but we grow stronger together..we scream out of fear and we find our sweet roommate to help us through the night and when we finally open our eyes to the real deal we are suddenly not hungry anymore.
Rage .. anger..shouts..a fire in the house.
How many times have we did this??well a lot and I mean a lot .
Do you know just how many times we fought??I guessed so too you don’t know, it was more than you can count but that’s not the reason ..it’s because we always made up and we always forgot about our anger to start a fresh and new page of our diary together.
Missing..nostalgia..being away.
We are together yet far away from home ,we think we are enough but we wake up to reality and we feel like we need to be somewhere different somewhere we can freely call home and prove it too. And yet our hearts find each other in midnight and start consoling an old wound.
Childish acts..lovely smirks..and personal love affairs.
Ohhh just tell me how many times have we fallen for the same ambush??that is LOVE ..we go all head over heels for a man who proves every time for us that he is and I quote from Laila in sabaya ”you are the classical case of a guy who doesn’t know what he wants”. and yet as much as we try to hide it we end up spelling it out cheap and when it’s time for real , all the blushes and smirks and childish acts and sweet smiles are long forgotten and a new face is on.. the real strong face of US ..a word that most people wouldn’t be as free to say as we do.
US is me and you and her and that sweet girl who just turned twenty.
from the deepest bottom of my heart I hope that you , me , her and that girl who just turned twenty the best of the best of fortunes and a great happy life to be proud of and a country to belong to and a home to feel safest in and troubles to overcome and feel the sweetness of victory and a husband to lean on and have a strong shoulder to cry on and for all of our big dreams and wishes to come true and if not for god to make us stronger to face the rejection and for each and every one of us to have a strong opinion and a strong feeling and a strong halo that sends people flying through the door and a faithful friend and a loving long lost and found person to change our daily routine and a great success and a person to love , respect , and believe in US….
You..her and that sweet girl who just turned twenty ,were always and forever will be my inspiration through the years….
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